Monday, April 14, 2008
Shit. Is either there are too many bees buzzing around me. or. i get molested and harrassed and ogled at. At work. In buses. In trains. Those dirty old ah peks. uncles. and lonely desperate men. Belle said i got 桃花结. Perhaps I should seek a genuine fortune teller.
Well, a little update on my life so far. Hmmm. Same old. Same old. My human biological clock had gone haywire. I'm a nocturnal human being now. Im sleeping like a log in the day and so hyperactive in the night. Sad to say, it's not because of Singapore's nightlife which was ranked 2nd in Global Country Brand Index. It's because of work. Seems like it's the off-peak season for hotels now. Because the occupancy rate in Rasa Sentosa is so low now Barnacles is trying to cutting down on casual labour costs. I realised i'm in a comfort zone now. I'm neither ready nor prepared to move out of this comfort zone. I have nice managers. excluding that 废才一号. I have nice working collegues. minus the mean ones. I have nice chefs. nice stewarding guys. I love the way of bumping into friends who are in different departments. I love the way Fiona, Louise and I sensed each other's happiness and unhappiness. i still remember there's once i made them cry. I love the way I had long girl talks with Fiona at the unloading bay while waiting for the night transport home. I love the way everyone care and concern about me. I love the way of meeting up with our ex-manager at St James. I love the way advices were given to enlighten me. I love the way we go for all outings. So much loves. but i know that's not where i wanna be in future. Deep deep down. i know what i want. but. not now. I'm afraid of leaving my comfort zone. of leaving the wonderful people. of going to unfamiliar places. of knowing new people and making new friends. I've lost $150 just to realise that Shane 是个卑鄙无耻下流的人渣 when i see him as my good good friend before this expensive lesson. I'm afraid of making decisions. the right one out of the many choices i have.
I should try getting my human biological clock back in it's normal working condition.
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12:30 AM
